week 4, thursday

[ninjay]

[ sometime thursday evening, but before curfew, jay is going to track down andersen. when he does find him, he will pull him aside to some remote corner.

whatever he has to talk about is obviously very urgent since he doesn't even give the dude a chance to ask what's going on before he blurts out, ]

You might have to cut off your legs.

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[ninjay]

Maybe being polite will help us live longer. I heard somewhere that being nice will help you live longer.

[ he's heard the opposite, actually. you'd think the nice ones would be the easier target since they're more likely to be trusting. ]

[ninjay]

I want to survive.

[ everyone does, obviously. it's said nonchalantly, and for a moment it may seem that's all to his answer. he decides to keep going though. ]

Because the longer I survive, the more chances I get at making sure everyone gets to go home in the end. It'll be hard to solve any mysteries if my body is on the evidence table one of these days.

[ninjay]

[ he thinks about it. he could just answer with, "if someone attacks me, then i'd defend myself," because it's the truth. a little generic, and anyone could lie and say that, but still true. ]

Sometimes, you're thrown into a situation where you have no choice but to do the absolute worst to get out of it. Your hands get bloodier, and bloodier, to the point where when you finally manage to escape the situation, you can still see the blood every time you look at yourself. My profile card says "murder" because I have killed people, but it is not something I did because I wanted to or enjoyed it. It's sickening, and it destroys you in a way that I don't know how to accurately describe.

[ he pauses there, frowning, before shrugging. ] So no, Andersen, I have no plans to run around killing everyone just to end the game sooner. If someone attacks me and I am forced to defend myself, then that's another story. But to me, killing others just to keep myself alive isn't survival.

[ninjay]

[ jay doesn't seem that bothered by andersen's reaction. honestly, the only reason he said any of that is because he didn't expect andersen to be the kind of person to offer sympathy. jay would have been annoyed otherwise. ]

Something like that. [ look he may be a dick at times but he's also a tales party member let him live ] I did mean what I said about wanting to send everyone home though.

[ninjay]

I haven't figured that part out yet.

[ whoops. ]

But we already know that they're not dead in the typical sense of the world.

[ninjay]

I know I'm not the only one thinking this, so I'm sure someone will figure something out. Anything less than that doesn't feel like a true victory from our end.

[ and if jay plays a game, he plays to win, which means everyone needs to go home. ]